Today it’s an unpleasant day. It seems that all the terrible things came together on this way. At the beginning of the day , i woke up at 5:47, daring not delay for a second,i did the English reading comprehension in the exercise book.However,i couldn’t concentrate on doing this,i am not feeling well because the desk is too small for me to writing.The another reason is i am afraid to disturb my roomates who perhaps i am not very appreciate to them.So you could comprehensive i don’t want to be found i am learning.Yup, it’s a bad psychological.
Of course the test is terrible.The right to wrong is one to four.It just because i don’t have a strong mind and ability.I am really from the bottom of the barrel.That’s just the start! First class is the physical experiment of college.I found i always absent-minded,not pay attention to the lecture.I always woolgather when the teacher was talking.So,when i did the experciment,i met the trouble.It’s ashamed that i’m not think myself first,i only express a felling of anxious and complained.I looked around others and try to ask them for help,in fact,i only want to fet them mercy and give laboratory apparatus the baby to hold.At last,i told the sitution to the teacher.The teacher is a typical northeast woman coupled with the acknowledge she had taught in the class.So she didn’t respon to me and scold me lightly.She had an impatience face in my eyes.Until i returnedto my seat,she was still taking.I am a vulnerable girl and could help crying.At the help of others,i find the fault.It;s such a small and simper fault that i continued the experiment in a minute.
I don’t blame the teacher,It’s my fault.I feel very dispirited.
Then when the time came to twelve o’clock.It’s time to doing group discussion.Because i didn’t take the orangepi and computer, the group leader jangit annoyed me and said:”let us give it up.”with a helpless expression. I was stunned and felt guilty.What worse,when the group member teach the acknowledge,i take no question because i know nothing about it. How stupid i am. I used to think i would only learn,but now i find i cannot even learn.
After the discussion, i felt more lost than ever and feelings of inadequacy.Come back to my dorm,i think the group had put too much effort in this project,i cannot give it up.So i chat with jangit whether i could take the computer to work with him.He aggred.I was a little relieved.Although i was very sleep, i still take a big bag to see him. In the dramatic result,he stood me up what let me feel he played tricks on me.I wait him for almost two hours and send the message to him,no response to me.At first, i am only think he didn’t see it,but until now,i realized it’s a lie and he was just ridicule me for my poor ability. It’s right. I am terriber!I don’t have the power to move the heavy stone.I realized that how ignorant i am.I have wasted one year .I am losting myself. I am a joker, a arrogant girl. This feeling strain to me. Whenever this time,i don’t talk much.Because i think is too volatile to be mature.I don’t know how to solve and i only want to become stronger.
At any rate,fighting!I have only one year.To get close to jangit and beyond him,then i am really happy.
